can it be love, if i want you to be different?
do i want you to be different?
or do i just not yet understand how to be with you as my fullest self…
to be with you as honestly as i can be
am i the one who has been holding back?
a million little insecurities,
separating my heart from yours.
ever more questions, while answers seem fleeting,
fluid and elusive
the only thing that seems certain is that i continue to hold a space for you
will there ever come a time that you’ll fill it?
or will we continue to exist only in my mind?
missing you is a lie